The Very Last Message To You

Yea, we have just broke up today. I planned to delete everything of yours in my phone or whatever it is, but I found out that there's just too much of them and I don't feel like deleting all that. There's so many memories of us and I don't know should I delete them.

This time, for the first time, we are really dedicated in breaking up. None of us say sorry nor asking the other one to stop or whatever action to stop us from breaking up. Perhaps, this time is really the end. To be honest, this is not the result I want. But since I can't give you the freedom you desire, and I want to be cared like how you did last time while you can't, maybe this is the best way to both of us. I know you're suffer when you're with me. Words you asked for break up that day are still in my mind. You told me that I can't give you the freedom you desire and the freedom you desire is I have to allow you to go for every single outing you want and never say 'no'. I apologise for being a control freak and I apologise for can't giving you such freedom.

I called you several times when you were with your friends yesterday and none of the calls is more than 5 minutes. Yet, you scolded me for calling you too frequent. The first message I saw when I woke up, was the informing message you sent me to let me know that you're going to pulau pangkor now. I don't know what kind of feelings should I have. But I just can't control myself. We promised each other that we will Skype every night unless there's really special case. Last night, you went back home at 2.30am and told me that you were talking to your mum so we can't Skype. You said that you will accompany me today yet today you were already on the way to pulau pangkor with your friends.And when I asked you when can we chat, you said tomorrow again. I'm tired of all these tomorrow,tomorrow and tomorrow. You never have time for me. The first day you went back to your hometown, you were busy helping your dad. The second day, you were busy hanging out with your friends. And today, the third day, you were busy with your sudden vacation. I'm not sure how should I feel.

I've never thought that there'll be couple who think that they have talk to much in a day. I've never thought that there'll be couple who think they have spend more time together. This is just so weird. I know you have your life and I have mine. But don't you know that I've spend a lot of time on you and you're like my world which I'm always around you?

I've never thought that our relationship will end in this way. Never. But it just ended.

You're important to me. I hope you know. Although we are not couple anymore, but I still hope that you can be safe and take care of yourself all the time. I wish my decision can give you the freedom you desire as you will be free after all. Remember, not to find a Scorpio girlfriend anymore because most of us are like this I think.

Thanks for everything you've done for me and thanks your caring me and take care of me during this period of time. This, should be the end...

Prob-o-meter

Day by day, I feel that the love you have towards me is reducing. I know you said it's not, but I can feel it. I'm not sure are you right or am I. All I know is I really can't fell your love at all. Maybe you think your love to me is still remains the same, but to me, it has reduced day by day. 

I don't know since when you started to scold me whenever you want. I don't know since when you started not to care about me anymore. I don't know will you still be like this in the future or will you become worse than now in the future. 

I'm just a girl and I want to be cared like I'm fragile. I want to be concerned like I'm patient of yours. I want to be loved like I'm a princess. You were treating me so last time. But everything changed after I came back from my sem break. 

I'm not sure can we continue our relationship in this way, but I can tell you that I can't stand for your temper now. I apologise if my temper was so last time and you were the one who tolerate with me. I had changed to good now, but why are you changing to worse? I asked myself every night before sleeping, I asked myself when I'm staring at you, I asked myself what makes you become like that? Is it me? 

I don't know what else can I say. We had quarrelled about this for more than 5 times and you had told me several times that you will try to control your temper. But why can't I see any improvement in you? I asked you to chase me back. But you didn't want and you said that it will not make our relationship gets any better. Yet, you never know that I asked you to chase me back because I want you to remind me of the feeling we had at first and the love you had towards me last time. But you always say that there is no forever close relationship. You don't get me until now. I don't want forever close relationship, but just a closer one than now. Do you really know what's the feeling of being treated cool by the other half of yours. 

I don't want this thing to affect my exam neither yours. Is separating for somedays is a better way to us?  I wonder why must this happen to us when it is almost your birthday. 

If I ask for break up in this period of time, no doubt, I want you to lose me and get me back if you want. Other told me that: If you want to know is a guy loves you, let him go, if he comes back, he will be yours forever, but if he doesn't, let him go, he is not meant for you. 

I want you to lose me. I want you to appreciate me more. I want you to know your temper had chased me away. Please don't say that I don't love you that's why I can't stand for your temper, it is simply because your temper makes me can't breathe. I'm trying my best not to get angry when you're angry with me. Can't you see what I'm trying to do to avoid quarrelling with you? Have you ever appreciate what I'm trying to do to keep our relationship? I hope you do and will truly change yourself. 

热血精神

看了《ON CALL 36小时 II》的片段，又再次的让我想当医生了。他们那种想要救人的精神，让我的内心再次变的热血。爸爸那天也说，以我这种人来说，读生意是很浪费的，尤其生意并不算是一项专业。他说：没办法，你的身体不允许你去读更专业的科目。听到这个，我好心酸。为什么我明明就有那么热血的精神想就读医科，可偏偏我的身体状况那么的差？我看到其他人po自己在医学院上课的场景，他们的成绩，我问自己，为什么站在那里的不是我？为什么不是我成为一名优秀的医生？

现在，家庭状况大概也供不了我读医科吧！我可不可以，在长大后，自己努力赚钱，供自己读医呢？希望未来的自己，真的有这个能力。

现在的我及未来的我，一起努力吧！

加油！！！！！

Baby boy, I suddenly realized that we should have a more mature relationship. You are always the one who is mature in this relationship, but I am not. I keep on jealous of your past. I know I shouldn't do so. I promise... I will be more mature... I won't be jealous of her anymore... by the way, you look so cute when you're jealous <3 p="">

Baby boy, I promise you that I won't be angry with you so easily anymore... I pity you sometimes too when I regret for angry with you... I know my temper nowadays is bad... sorry... I'm not sure why will I be like this but I will try to improve myself so that my temper won't be this bad anymore... baby boy, I'm really sorry for everything which had happened these days... sorry :( I miss you~

MY DEAREST CUTEST LITTLE BABY HUBBY BOY, I WILL TRY MY BEST TO LOVE YOU LIKE HOW YOU LOVE ME <3 p="">

Trust?

I know it is my fault for causing you to lose the trust in me...that's why I've been trying so hard to get your heart back in this relationship...we had a really serious fight that night...a really serious one... We almost broke up...  I try to make you feel safe... I tell you everything that you want to know... I tell you what am I doing all the time... I tell myself that it's okay if we don't Skype... I try to trust you and stop being sensitive... but when we Skype today, you asked me are you stupid... I said no...and you told me that Grace told you that I compared you with him but I can tell you I didn't... You said that you've been so down because of this for few days... I don't know why did she say so to you... all I know that I had lose your trust completely... Sorry... I can't help to get back your trust already... If you don't want to trust me...no matter how hard I try, my effort will be wasted... I swear I had tried very hard to get you back...I swear... But I don't get why can't you trust me...just like how we were last time... Time passes...things changes...so do people... Maybe I shall just take it easy... let things go its way...no forcing...no turning back...no toleration...

A message to you...

We won't know what will happen tomorrow. I don't want to lie to you anymore. Here's what's really on my mind.

I don't know am I loving you or am I liking you. I can't differentiate them. I know this might be hurting but I wanna let you know that I'm sure that I love ZY before this. I don't know did I think carefully before we've been together. All I can remember is I was afraid that you will be attracted by other girls on orientation day as the next day will be orientation day. That's why we've been together until now. 

I admitted that I still miss ZY once in a while when we are together. Memories about him flash back in my mind and make my heart sad. But everytime when I think about what he has done for me, I found out that he's caring me in his way. The way he cares about me is not obvious but that's just his way. He acts like he doesn't care about me just because he doesn't want me to have too much hope on him. He knows that he won't couple during this time and he knows that I will wait for him. After I found out that he's caring me in his own way, I realize that he likes me too. He thought of it so many times and this has troubling him for so long just because he really likes me that's why he's careful with his own decision as he doesn't want to hurt me at all. He knows that hurting me now is better than hurting me in the future. He stands in my position to think for me. He always hides his true feelings from me. 

You're the one who can make me feel touch. You did a lot of romantic things for me which no one has ever did that for me before. I appreciate that. You tried to give me surprise whenever you can as you said that you like my face when I saw those surprises. I like you surprise, it's true. I know you love me too. I really do. You tried your best not to do anything which might make me jealous and you will inform me when you texted girls. The way you care me is straight and obvious. I don't have to guess what's the purpose for you to do that. I just know that you care about me. 

I don't know how does it feels when couple with ZY but I know how does it feels when couple with you. You're the one who will do anything for me, but I'm not sure will ZY do the same. I did imagine how will it be to couple with ZY but I just can't. I really don't know how will my future be if I couple with ZY. I admit that I really do feel like coupling with ZY but I don't know how will it be and when will this comes true. 

I did promise daddy that I won't be coupling with anyone until I finish my studies if I break up with you one day. I'm not sure is it possible for us to get back together if we break up one day. 

Someone reminded me of what I said last year (although I can't remember that at all). He/she said that I told them that I'm gonna find someone who is rich so that I can have luxury life in the future. I wanna tell you, I believe that you will be someone who is success in the future. I believe that I can rely on you. I believe that our future will be bright. That's why I want you to plan your future nicely. I wish you know how your future will be and think of what will happen to your future and get the solution before it happens. 

I was hurt when ZY told me that all he wants to be is my bro, a bro which our relationship will be better than love. I know it very clear that I don't want him to be my bro. I guess the main reason why I can't be with him is because we hide our true feelings from each other.

I did miss ZY, that's true. I did miss you, that's true too. I can't make a choice. I'm now with you. I'm afraid that you will break up with me one day. I'm afraid that if that one day comes, ZY might don't want me anymore too. And I thought...if we break up now, will ZY still want me? Should I break up with you now and wait for him until me and him finish our studies? Or should I be with you until that one day comes and don't think of ZY anymore? Perhaps someone will come into my life after that. 

I did think that I will let go of ZY one day if we can be like this for a long time. But I don't feel like letting go of him because he's really the one who I have fallen in love with. It's really hard for me to make the choice. My heart aches everytime when i think about him. Those memories about him just won't let me go, even when I'm determined in letting go of him. 

I'm not sure is it still possible for me to be with him...

Someone reminded me to appreciate you. He/she said that you really cares about me. You care about me in your own way too. The way you care about me is sweet and caring, feeling loved. I really don't know what will happen in the future. I wish i can predict the future. I wish I can know my fate. But I know all this can't happen and will never ever happen so I'm in a dilemma. That's why I am kinda emo lately. 

I guess I should tell you about my dream. 

I dreamt about you and him last night. I was in a rush to see you but I stopped at somewhere when I saw him and I chat with him for a long time. I feel like the time passing fast when I'm chatting with him. You felt annoyed while waiting for me. I didn't tell you that I chatted with him just now. But still you felt annoyed. You even wanna talk about breaking up. 

That's what I've been thinking of this during this whole day. I feel that I want to change my lifestyle again. I wanna make myself busy like last time to forget about everything and no time for me to think of those nonsense things. I don't know am I making the right decision or will I make this decision comes true but I'm a little bit afraid that I will not have time for you if I keep myself busy all the time and you will break up with me if so. 

I keep on asking you will you don't want me one day and it's true. I'm really afraid that you might don't want me one day. You said that you should be the one who is afraid and I wanna tell you, I'm afraid too. I'm starting to lose my confidence in this relationship. I'm afraid...really really afraid....

A Card

We have been together for almost four months. You never make me any handmade things so far. So I asked for a card from you. The easiest handmade thing to do. This is the first time I beg for someone to make me a card. But you disappoint me. All I want is a handmade card from you, is that too much to ask for? A card without any surprise can already lighten me up, but you always want to make things complicated. I have been waiting for that card for so long and he had promised me for so long, but still you failed to give it to me today. I asked you why didn't you give me today and you told me that today is not the right timing to give me the card. I aksed you then why did you confess to me today, you told me that this was because you had promised me before. You promised to give me the card when we meet up next time after our meet up last 2 weeks ago, you broke you promise. AGAIN! Do you know my heart aches? You can make your ex such a special and full of effort card but all I want is a card from you. I don't care if it's special or not, I don't care if it's surprisingly or not, all I want is something handmade from you. It seems that it's really too much to be asked. I'm really hurt this time. I can't bear myself to be hurt anymore. I'm sure you're confused why am I so angry this time. I had finally realize that you don't understand me. Yeah, you know what I colour I like, what drinks I like, what anime I lik, what food I like, but when it comes to this kind of things, you don't know what's in my heart. You don't know why I want the card so much. You don't know why I want something handmade by you so much. I want to feel that I'm being appreciated. I want to feel that I can replace your ex. I want to feel that you care about me.

Begging a card from someone is not nice. I had begged from you so many times, but you just won't make me one. You just won't give me that. You can make a card which is better than those I've done in my lifetime, and now I can't even get one which is simple. A card with 1314 words which are written in 5 different colour with a nice and adorable cover. That's how much your ex worth. None for me. And that's what I worth. Sorry, I don't worth any handmade card. You can now throw it away, burn it away or do whatever you like with it. I don't care and I don't want to care anymore. The more I care about it, the more disappoint I will be. Stop hurting me in this way. My heart is aching. It cries. There's no more tears left for you. You can go to other girls, you can tackle other girls, you can make zillions upon zillions of cards for other girls, you can date other girls, you can do whatever you like and they are none of my business anymore. Everyone has a price and I guess that's my price. It doesn't even worth a handmade card. Thanks. It truly really does hurts me a lot. Thanks for hurting me. Thanks for letting my heart bleeds.  

3 Months...

8/7 is our third months anniversary.

You lied to me that you couldn't come to Straits Quay and accompany me yet you were there earlier than I did. You had walked around for such a long time to find me. When you were standing behind me, I never thought that you were there. I played my games and didn't notice your message. When I turned around, you were there, standing right behind me. You accompanied me from far. Daddy mummy were then allowed me to sit at one side and I asked you to come and accompany me. You didn't dare at first but I forced you to come. You sat far away and nearer after that. You accompanied me again when I wanted to go to rest room. When we were out from the rest room, you held my hand. When you were away to get me a bottle of water, my sis came to accompany me and you planned to run away at first, but since I asked you to join us, you sat down. When daddy and mummy came, you greeted them and gave mummy the cookies. Daddy and mummy asked a lot of things about you. That was the first surprise.

The second surprise. I thought you were at home and you asked me to call you when I was about to go home. Sharp at 12, you called me and wished me 'Happy 3 Months Anniversary'. I was surprised. You asked me to come out from grandma house, you told me there was shooting stars tonight. I went out but I saw nothing. I went back to the house but I heard your car alarm rang so I thought you were outside of my grandma house. I called you and asked if it was you and you said it was. You saw me and said 'Happy 3 Months Anniversary' again. I asked you weren't you supposed to be at home and how were you going to go back to Penang in the midnight. You told me that you were going to stay at your relative house and went back to Penang early in the next morning. You handed me a bouquet of flower and I got really shocked. Bii bii, I was really really touched when I saw your surprise. I appreciate everything that you have done for me. And I was so sorry that Hui spoilt your third surprise. I guess she didn't even know that you planned the third surprise. And I got to know that you lied to me about your replacement class things. But I was touched. You seem to be the only one who can make me so surprise and touched. Thanks, my baby boy.

You came to my grandma house to find me. You fetched me and my cousins to Penang and joined my relatives. This is the first time you came out with my relatives. You wiped my sweat away, you held my hand, you accompanied me for shopping, you fed me food, you carried my handbag for me, you accompanied me to buy drinks at Starbucks and named me PIGGY, you accompanied me to the car, you bought me my favourite lemon blended for me... you're treating me in the way which no one can treat me so. You care about my family opinions on you. You are so scared that they will dislike you.

当你开始追求对方时，你会把最好的一面呈现给对方。即使对方告诉你他的缺点，你会对他说：“没关系，没有人是完美的。”“没关系，我不介意。”“没关系，喜欢一个人不就是要包容他的缺点吗？”这些，是你的诺言，还记得吗？在一起久了后，你就会发现她的缺点。你开始不耐烦，不想忍耐，并忘了之前那些诺言。你开始嫌弃，并告诉她这样不好，那样不好，要她改变，变成你想要的样子。

当你和她变成恋人后，你们开始谈起过去，未来。未来，还很遥远，遥不可及。但过去，已经发生，并不能改变。但要是另一方真的为了自己的过去吃醋的话，怎么办？换一个女友？找个时光机，回到过去，改变过去？


我不能说服我自己，告诉自己你已经放下她了。毕竟，在我们开始前不久，你们还有着密切的关系，你依然会用亲密的称呼来叫她。你依然在她的面子书上写着想念她的话。你依然和她一起出去，一起拍照。你们的亲密程度，真的让我很吃醋，让我很难忘掉你们的关系。我很担心你们还有联系，很担心她随时会回来找你，很担心她会从我身边抢走你。

我知道你对我有多么重要，我知道我不能失去你。失去你，我的心会很痛。我承认我自私，我承认我不喜欢分享，我承认我害怕，但我就是不想失去你。我把照片收起来，是想提醒我自己，你不完全是我的。我每次看到那张照片时，我的确会伤心，但我尝试让自己麻木，让自己习惯。我不想搞成现在这个样子，只是我还是很介意你说：“你的公主脾气又来了”的那句话。你开始嫌弃我了吗？我害怕，我害怕因此而失去你。毕竟，我已因此而失去过一次了，不想再因为同样的原因，而失去第二次。

请原谅我的自私，因为你是我的；请原谅我那么爱吃醋，因为我不喜欢分享；请原谅我的公主脾气，因为我就是这样；请原谅我选择沉默，因为我希望你能自己发现；请原谅我不告诉你原因，因为我不奢望得到你的谅解；请原谅我所做错的一切，这些都是因为我不想并不能失去你。对不起。

Safe

You don't feel safe when you're with me. I'm sorry. You asked me not to hurt you because you love me and you can't bear it if I hurt you. I'm so afraid that I will hurt you, not purposely but accidentally.

You said that I always talk about other guys in front of you and it makes you jealous. I thought you will take it as joke, I thought you know that my heart is always with you, I thought you won't mind it, I thought you trust me... I know that you love me, you care me and that's why you get jealous. I appreciate that. I don't want to lose you, but I'm afraid that things that I do might hurt you without noticing it. If one day, I really do lose you because of this, I gotta apologise to you from my deepest part of my heart. And you said that there's a lot of guys tackle me. If I'm interested in them, I would have accepted them before accepting you. Once I chose you, that means I will keep my heart with you. I chose you because you got my heart, not them.

I just hope that you will know I never want to lose you.

22/6/13

It was an amazing day. You came to SP from Penang early in the morning just to see me soon. You were waiting for me at Old Town before I came. When I was there, I was looking for you in the restaurant but I can't find you. You were already in the car >< you hugged me so tight. We went for movie together after that, Monster University. You hugged me tight in the cinema and let me leaned on your shoulder. I felt warmth. After the movie, we went for lunch together at Pizza Hut. You cut me pizzas and told me stories of you lately. We took some photos together too. We went for another movie after that, World War Z. Again, twin seat and you hugged me tight. You had warned me that this movie is about vampire. You know that I would be scared. I insisted watching that with you. You covered my eyes when there were some parts which you know they would scared me. I prepared my knuckles to punch you and you asked me stop doing so or else I won't be able to wear the ring in the future. You said that you will create a ring which is flexible. I know that is impossible but I still feel sweet of that. We then decided to play bowling in another mall. You drove your car and I drove mine. You followed me at the back. I can see you cry. You cried because you don't want to leave me so soon. When we reached the car park, you parked beside my car and went into my car and cried again. This time, you hugged me and I could hardly breath. You cried until your eyes were swollen. When we went for bowling, there was a kid who played the machine. You know I am scared of the sound, you covered my ears for me. That's really really caring. We went for dinner together after that. We sat in the car and talked for another half an hour. We didn't want to leave each other at all. But since daddy asked me to go home earlier, we gotta be separated. You followed my car again to go to the toll, and at the traffic light, I would need to turn right and you would make a U-turn. I purposely drove slower and when I reached the traffic light, it turned red, just as I wished. I was hoping so that the traffic light didn't turn green. I cried at the moment. I just got to know how much I love you and I need you at that moment. I cried and the tears just won't stop. The traffic light turned green. I looked at your car that made the U-turn. That made me cry harder.


We Skype at night and I told you that I was reading our previous conversation on Facebook. You told me that you had done that before after we've been together for about one month. I screen-shotted the conversation which made me feel sweet. I read them back for you. I told you how you caught my attention, how you got my number, how we started talking...those are the memories which I never wanted to lose. We laughed a lot because of our memories.

Now, I had finally know what I want. You're all I need. You don't have to worry that I will fall for others now. I bet I can't find anyone out there who can treat me better than you do.

Appreciate

I'm not sure if he's the one, but I know that his presence makes my life better...

I believe that almost every girl hopes that she can be a princess one day. but when time passes by, she becomes mature. She knows that princess doesn't exist but still she's hoping for someone who can treat her like a princess. I seem to find that person who can treat me like a princess.

He never fails to surprise me. 

He went to Kuantan for a competition for five days. He contacted me everyday just to let me know what's going on around him. I'm glad that I'm the one who he wanna share the good news with. Yes, He won the competition. He was crying on the other end of the phone and told me that he got silver for the competition. His bus arrived in Penang at 6am. I was already awake that time when he texted me about that. We talked on the phone and he said that he would give me a call when he was arrived at home. I had just finished preparing myself to go to college when I received his call. He asked me to go to my car to check if he's stuffs was there. I rushed to my car and to my surprise, he was in front of my house! That was really a big surprise ever. 

We were once hang out with my best friend at Queensbay Mall. When we were shopping around there, I saw a koala bear stuffed toy which was cute. We stood there for a few minutes and he seemed to know that I liked that bear very much. He then said that he wanna go to the washroom. Me and my friend felt like going there too. I asked for my handbag from him. After going to the washroom, he texted me suddenly to ask for my handbag. Me and my friend felt weird of that. We continued our shopping after he came out from the washroom. When he went to pay for the autopay, I thought of taking something out of my handbag. Once again, he surprised me by putting in the newly bought koala bear in my handbag. He then told me that he went to buy the bear once me and my friend entered the washroom and that was the reason why he asked for the handbag from me. 

On our first month anniversary, he asked me to go to my car to get something for him. And there it was, a love-shaped notebook which I liked it so much when we went for shopping once. He wrote all the memories we had in the notebook which was so touched. He gave me a key chain which stated the day we couple. 

He can always make me feeling happy even when I'm unhappy.

I was once feeling unhappy and he knew that the only drink that can make me happy is Justea. He bought me two cans of that to cheer me up. I asked him why did he buy two and he said that just in case I'm unhappy when he's not with me, I can have that. 

I was once angry with him for kept me waiting for too long to take dinner with me. He then went out and buy me some food and of course, a can of Justea too. He fed me the food and kept on asking me not to angry anymore. That makes me feel sweet. 

On our second month's anniversary, it is the time he is busy with his competition stuffs. He felt guilty for not gifting me anything. We went to Gurney for movie that day. After the movie, we went to carpark to get the car. I saw a Rilakkuma plush which was hung at my back mirror. There was a little bit jammming at the carpark so he asked me to take out my laptop and let him play some games. To my surprise again, there was a card on my laptop. He wrote something touched on the card and I almost cry because of that. That was truly a wonderful day. 

He's the one who cares me very much.

I was sick for two days once. It was a public holiday on the second day. He planned to hang out with his friends at first, but because of me, he rejected them. He was criticized by his friends after that. He took care of me for the whole night by covering me with blanket, preparing every single little things that I might be needed when I was awake and of course my phone at somewhere which was reachable so that I can give him a call when I need him anytime. 

I am suffering from anaemia and I will feel dizzy easily whenever I stand up. He will always be the one who knows that I will feel dizzy and he will always be at my side to let me hold him to keep myself standing. He won't allow me to kneel down because I will surely feel dizzy. That's always the way he cares me. 

When girls is having PMS, their mood become bad and they might feel pain. He can remember those suffering days of mine, and he will bring me chocolate when I'm feeling pain and he won't allow me to take cold drinks during that few days. He will also help me to buy those pads >< He cooked me supplement too~ He never angry with me even when I scold him or angry with him or even suggesting those unreasonable request, never.

I mentioned that I like the hello kitty plushes which were given out at McD. He heard that and he kept it in his mind. He bought me those plushes and he was once in a rush for his class, but still he went out from the college just to buy me that. 

This is how he cares me, from all those little things...he changed himself because of me...he corrected those bad habits which I dislike about him...he cares about my feeling always...he tries him best not to let me down or jealous because of him...

He's the one who I appreciate to have...thanks a lot, the one who called me little precious piggy <3 nbsp="">

谎言 vs. 现实

谎言世界美好却不真实，现实世界真实却不美好。你，会选择哪一个？

我听过一个故事：
有个男生很爱一个女生。那女生是个哑巴，所以觉得自己配不上这个男生，因此不停地拒他与千里之外。有一天，男生出外工干了。那段期间，他给女孩写了一封信。信上说：他公干时，发生意外，失去了说话能力，他已学会了手语。现在就不再有谁配不上谁的问题存在了。他问她，肯不肯嫁给他。她答应了。就这样，他们结婚，生子，一直到老。她比他先走一步。他在她的坟前喃喃道：“这个谎，骗了你那么多年，你会怪我吗？”

他，为了和她在一起，扮了几十年的哑巴，但这却是个谎言。女孩知道后，该开心，还是伤心？这种感觉很复杂吧！开心，因为有个男生可以为自己牺牲那么多；伤心，因为自己被骗了几十年。这故事同时也证明了，建立在谎言上的爱情，也可以很幸福，很美好。

还有另一个故事：
有个男人，很爱他的老婆，他们的生活很美满。有一天，他出外谈生意时，被灌醉了，还做了对不起他太太的事。他清醒后，很内疚。这件事的发生，完全是个意外。他，为了维护他的婚姻，保住现在所拥有的辛福生活，他决定不把事情说出来。他成功地骗过了他老婆，但没想到，最终还是让老婆发现了这件事。他告诉她这一切都是意外，他的心里只有她，他不把事情说出来，只是不希望这件事会影响他们的感情。老婆不听，最后离婚收场。

这个男人，选择让老婆活在谎言世界里，因为这个世界，会比现实世界来得美好。他不懂，老婆不接受他的解释，是因为他宁愿让老婆活在一个假的世界里，也不愿说出真相。他不相信他老婆可以体谅他，并和她商量这件事。他一开始骗得过老婆，只因为老婆信任他。

别去欺骗任何人，因为能被你骗的，都是相信你的人。谎言，可以让某件事看起来更美好，感觉上更美好，但当谎言被揭发时，总会有人受伤，而且那个伤，会很痛，很痛......

The One Day

Everytime when I'm jealous of other girls, you will always tell me that I'm the only one in your heart. I hope that it is real. Or even if it's a lie, I hope that you won't tell me the truth one day. To be honest, I prefer living in a fake world. I know you're jealous when I showed you the message, but since you know him and you know that two of us are just impossible, I don't get why will you jealous of it. Well, maybe it's because you care me or you're afraid that you will lose me, and that's why you're jealous. I will take that even if it's not true. All I want you to know is that I'm trying very very hard to forget that one person in my heart and the love I had towards him last time is not flowing to your side. Please trust me that I can do it. I will prove to you one day that I have let go of it and tell you that I love you proudly one day. Just wait for the day to come. I'm trying to play my part well, so please don't disappoint me when I'm putting so much effort into our relationship.  

A News to Share~

I have a good news to share over here which is my dad had finally allowed me to go for Medic. Simultaneously, I was also in a dilemma. I had tried my best to persuade myself to give up on Medic and kept on telling myself that I won't be a good doctor even if I manage to graduate. I decided to take Business as that's what daddy and mummy wanted me to take the most. Since I don't have second choice, I followed their will. And this sudden news had made me shock, happy, touching, confusing....... and I had a complicated feeling at the moment daddy told me about it. Will I really be a good doctor in the future? Will I graduate? Which one to choose and which one is the best for me? I asked myself and also others' opinions. Some's help and some's don't. Daddy calmed me down by telling me that I shall have a try in Medic and if I really feel that I can't overcome the stress that I'm going to face soon and even if I can't catch up with my study, I shall quit from Medic and go for other course. He said that that's all right for him and kept asking me not to worry about the money. All he wants is her daughter's bright future and can pursue the job she likes the most. He doesn't want me to regret in the future like his friend does. He knows very well that we couldn't go back to the past to change our decision and hence, change our future. He wants me to make the right decision and never ever regret on my own decision. He loves me very much and I know it very well.

Daddy and Mummy, hundreds and thousands of thanks won't be enough for me to show how grateful I am to you. Thanks, Daddy & Mummy. Love you two always. ❤