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Monday, April 23, 2012

Anchor Broadcast Idol Contest

Hooray! I was chosen in the Anchor Broadcast Idol Contest which is organised by Han Chiang College. ^^ I never thought that I would be chosen as the comments given by the judges didn't sound good. I cried right after coming out from the audition room. It's so ashamed. >.<
At first, I was waiting for my counselling teacher to tell me the result for the contest. Fortunately, I saw a status of one of the contestants which stated that he was chosen in the contest. He told me that Han Chiang College informed him and his schoolmates through Facebook. So, I logged in my second account and saw a new message unread. I clicked on it and prayed that it was from the college but it disappointed me. Then, he suggested me to check it on HCTV ( Han Chiang TV ) page on Facebook. When I saw my name there, I ran to my parents room and told them the good news. 
The only thing that I am worried about is the following events will affect my preparation for my mid-term exam. =( Wish myself good luck then ^^

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

遗失自己

我,活了17个年头,
第一次,抱着爸爸哭,跟爸爸谈心事。
爸爸说,我很能干,但我是孤独的。
反复思考了这番话后的我,
才真真正正地发现
自己在心里筑起的那一道墙
把自己的心与世界隔离了

我,似乎是孤独的
不管身边有多少朋友围绕着我
我都无法发自内心地笑

爸爸说
在他三个孩子当中
我是最独立的
我为我自己计划了一切
从不必他们为我担心
也从来没有在他们面前脆弱过
爸爸,
我不是坚强
只是不想把脆弱的一面
在你们面前展现出来
我不希望你们为我担心
因为我觉得
这样的我很没用

你们面前的我
不是真正的我
面对着镜子的我
也不是真正的我
那到底
真正的我
去了哪里
别问我
因为我也不知道

从前的我
认为孤独的我
就是最真实的我
但我错了
我不只骗了身边的人
还不小心骗了自己
我已找不回真正的自己了
我已过不了自己那关了
我需要你们了
我的家人
我的朋友

镜头下的我,也是被包装过的我 :-(