A Card

We have been together for almost four months. You never make me any handmade things so far. So I asked for a card from you. The easiest handmade thing to do. This is the first time I beg for someone to make me a card. But you disappoint me. All I want is a handmade card from you, is that too much to ask for? A card without any surprise can already lighten me up, but you always want to make things complicated. I have been waiting for that card for so long and he had promised me for so long, but still you failed to give it to me today. I asked you why didn't you give me today and you told me that today is not the right timing to give me the card. I aksed you then why did you confess to me today, you told me that this was because you had promised me before. You promised to give me the card when we meet up next time after our meet up last 2 weeks ago, you broke you promise. AGAIN! Do you know my heart aches? You can make your ex such a special and full of effort card but all I want is a card from you. I don't care if it's special or not, I don't care if it's surprisingly or not, all I want is something handmade from you. It seems that it's really too much to be asked. I'm really hurt this time. I can't bear myself to be hurt anymore. I'm sure you're confused why am I so angry this time. I had finally realize that you don't understand me. Yeah, you know what I colour I like, what drinks I like, what anime I lik, what food I like, but when it comes to this kind of things, you don't know what's in my heart. You don't know why I want the card so much. You don't know why I want something handmade by you so much. I want to feel that I'm being appreciated. I want to feel that I can replace your ex. I want to feel that you care about me.

Begging a card from someone is not nice. I had begged from you so many times, but you just won't make me one. You just won't give me that. You can make a card which is better than those I've done in my lifetime, and now I can't even get one which is simple. A card with 1314 words which are written in 5 different colour with a nice and adorable cover. That's how much your ex worth. None for me. And that's what I worth. Sorry, I don't worth any handmade card. You can now throw it away, burn it away or do whatever you like with it. I don't care and I don't want to care anymore. The more I care about it, the more disappoint I will be. Stop hurting me in this way. My heart is aching. It cries. There's no more tears left for you. You can go to other girls, you can tackle other girls, you can make zillions upon zillions of cards for other girls, you can date other girls, you can do whatever you like and they are none of my business anymore. Everyone has a price and I guess that's my price. It doesn't even worth a handmade card. Thanks. It truly really does hurts me a lot. Thanks for hurting me. Thanks for letting my heart bleeds.