Prob-o-meter

Day by day, I feel that the love you have towards me is reducing. I know you said it's not, but I can feel it. I'm not sure are you right or am I. All I know is I really can't fell your love at all. Maybe you think your love to me is still remains the same, but to me, it has reduced day by day. 

I don't know since when you started to scold me whenever you want. I don't know since when you started not to care about me anymore. I don't know will you still be like this in the future or will you become worse than now in the future. 

I'm just a girl and I want to be cared like I'm fragile. I want to be concerned like I'm patient of yours. I want to be loved like I'm a princess. You were treating me so last time. But everything changed after I came back from my sem break. 

I'm not sure can we continue our relationship in this way, but I can tell you that I can't stand for your temper now. I apologise if my temper was so last time and you were the one who tolerate with me. I had changed to good now, but why are you changing to worse? I asked myself every night before sleeping, I asked myself when I'm staring at you, I asked myself what makes you become like that? Is it me? 

I don't know what else can I say. We had quarrelled about this for more than 5 times and you had told me several times that you will try to control your temper. But why can't I see any improvement in you? I asked you to chase me back. But you didn't want and you said that it will not make our relationship gets any better. Yet, you never know that I asked you to chase me back because I want you to remind me of the feeling we had at first and the love you had towards me last time. But you always say that there is no forever close relationship. You don't get me until now. I don't want forever close relationship, but just a closer one than now. Do you really know what's the feeling of being treated cool by the other half of yours. 

I don't want this thing to affect my exam neither yours. Is separating for somedays is a better way to us?  I wonder why must this happen to us when it is almost your birthday. 

If I ask for break up in this period of time, no doubt, I want you to lose me and get me back if you want. Other told me that: If you want to know is a guy loves you, let him go, if he comes back, he will be yours forever, but if he doesn't, let him go, he is not meant for you. 

I want you to lose me. I want you to appreciate me more. I want you to know your temper had chased me away. Please don't say that I don't love you that's why I can't stand for your temper, it is simply because your temper makes me can't breathe. I'm trying my best not to get angry when you're angry with me. Can't you see what I'm trying to do to avoid quarrelling with you? Have you ever appreciate what I'm trying to do to keep our relationship? I hope you do and will truly change yourself.