Life

I was worrying about you for the whole day. I on my facebook for the whole day,just hoping for your reply. Hope that you wil be okay. You won't know how happy I am when I saw you online just now. But I don't know why are you treating me so cool. I'm scared. I don't have the confident to continue all this. Our relationship just started for 3 weeks,is our relationship going to end like this?

I understand that you have to accompany your friends and also your family. I understand it. There are lots of stuff that disturb my mind these days. I can only relax myself when I am with you and I am hoping you to consule me for awhile.  But what I get in return is more problems. Why do I have to face all these by myself? I'm tired. Tired with my life,tired with my works,tired with my studies and tired with everything. I'm worn out. I look strong but I don't. I never cry in front of you all doesn't mean that I don't cry. I'm just hoping for someone that can look through my heart although I never say it out. But is there anyone that can do that?

You started to think that I'm annoying, aren't you? You started to feel that I'm not as good as your dream girl, aren't you? My soul told me that it need some rest, it doesn't want to think of these anymore. I do appreciate the moments we spend together, I swear. I have something to tell you,but I don't dare to do so. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I just can't speak it out. This is the biggest trouble that keep disturbing my mind. I wanna share it with someone, but I don't know who can be the one that help me.

I need some rest...mentally and physically...if possible,I want to rest forever...rest in peace...