Imperfect~

I know that no one is perfect,but still,I work hard to make myself perfect. I know it's quite impossible. But why am I doing all these? Just for fun? NAH~no one will feel that this is fun,unless you are an abnormal person. Well,I don't really feel that I can be a 10/10 person,but I hope I can at least get 9/10.

When I was born,I was as pure as a piece of white paper. But as I grow up and become a teenager now,I noticed that my white paper is full of black dots. A black dot means 1 thing that I did it wrongly. And the black dots on the paper show me how many bad things I had done before. I'm trying to be perfect. And I'm working hard on it now. I tried my best to get the excellent result in everything. I try to be a good student in front of teachers,I try to get high marks in every exam,I try to finish my homework so that I can pass it up in time,I try my best to make myself selected for the sports,I try my best in the choral speaking audition,I try to do the secretary work nice and complete everything within a week...but what did I get in the end? I got no time to study for my exam,no time to relax myself,no time to rest my mind and my health has become worse and worse. I don't whether it is worth for me to do and sacrifice so many things for it,but I just hope that I can use these white dots to cover my black dots.

I don't like to talk about the past,especially the past that left sad feeling to me. I dislike to talk about the future because it's no point to talk about it. We won't know what will happen in the next second. So,why don't we use our time to appreciate what we have now but not wasting our time to think of future? Are we going to think what kind of husband or wife will I marry with in the future? Are we going to think will we be rich in the future? Are we going to think how our house will be in the future? Your dream won't come true if you just keep thinking about it but never take any action to achieve it. Aren't you think human is weird? We thought we are the smartest organism in the world. But what's the point of thinking like this? To make ourselves proud? In front of the animals and plants? Blow your own trumpet in front of the plants and waiting for them to clap hand for you? Don't do such silly thing. Everyone is just the same. When we were born,everything starts from zero. Maybe there is someone that you think he or she is a genius,but had you ever think that they achieve their success with their own work? They won't success if they just keep saying that "I will success one day". Rich doesn't mean success,poor doesn't mean that you can't be rich one day. It's all based on how you do and how you think.

Back to the topic,I just don't know why I can't be perfect. Maybe I didn't do my best yet,maybe I didn't push myself enough yet,maybe I didn't put all my effort on it yet. There are so many posibilities here so I will have to solve every posibilities so that I can know the main factor why I can never be perfect. 24-hours is not enough for me to do so many things. I have to arrange my time nicely and perfectly so that I can get some rest besides doing all of these. My work has affect my study. I won't allow this to continue happening in my life. So I should use the golden time now to study.

Gambateh，everyone \(≧▽≦)/