A Card

We have been together for almost four months. You never make me any handmade things so far. So I asked for a card from you. The easiest handmade thing to do. This is the first time I beg for someone to make me a card. But you disappoint me. All I want is a handmade card from you, is that too much to ask for? A card without any surprise can already lighten me up, but you always want to make things complicated. I have been waiting for that card for so long and he had promised me for so long, but still you failed to give it to me today. I asked you why didn't you give me today and you told me that today is not the right timing to give me the card. I aksed you then why did you confess to me today, you told me that this was because you had promised me before. You promised to give me the card when we meet up next time after our meet up last 2 weeks ago, you broke you promise. AGAIN! Do you know my heart aches? You can make your ex such a special and full of effort card but all I want is a card from you. I don't care if it's special or not, I don't care if it's surprisingly or not, all I want is something handmade from you. It seems that it's really too much to be asked. I'm really hurt this time. I can't bear myself to be hurt anymore. I'm sure you're confused why am I so angry this time. I had finally realize that you don't understand me. Yeah, you know what I colour I like, what drinks I like, what anime I lik, what food I like, but when it comes to this kind of things, you don't know what's in my heart. You don't know why I want the card so much. You don't know why I want something handmade by you so much. I want to feel that I'm being appreciated. I want to feel that I can replace your ex. I want to feel that you care about me.

Begging a card from someone is not nice. I had begged from you so many times, but you just won't make me one. You just won't give me that. You can make a card which is better than those I've done in my lifetime, and now I can't even get one which is simple. A card with 1314 words which are written in 5 different colour with a nice and adorable cover. That's how much your ex worth. None for me. And that's what I worth. Sorry, I don't worth any handmade card. You can now throw it away, burn it away or do whatever you like with it. I don't care and I don't want to care anymore. The more I care about it, the more disappoint I will be. Stop hurting me in this way. My heart is aching. It cries. There's no more tears left for you. You can go to other girls, you can tackle other girls, you can make zillions upon zillions of cards for other girls, you can date other girls, you can do whatever you like and they are none of my business anymore. Everyone has a price and I guess that's my price. It doesn't even worth a handmade card. Thanks. It truly really does hurts me a lot. Thanks for hurting me. Thanks for letting my heart bleeds.  

3 Months...

8/7 is our third months anniversary.

You lied to me that you couldn't come to Straits Quay and accompany me yet you were there earlier than I did. You had walked around for such a long time to find me. When you were standing behind me, I never thought that you were there. I played my games and didn't notice your message. When I turned around, you were there, standing right behind me. You accompanied me from far. Daddy mummy were then allowed me to sit at one side and I asked you to come and accompany me. You didn't dare at first but I forced you to come. You sat far away and nearer after that. You accompanied me again when I wanted to go to rest room. When we were out from the rest room, you held my hand. When you were away to get me a bottle of water, my sis came to accompany me and you planned to run away at first, but since I asked you to join us, you sat down. When daddy and mummy came, you greeted them and gave mummy the cookies. Daddy and mummy asked a lot of things about you. That was the first surprise.

The second surprise. I thought you were at home and you asked me to call you when I was about to go home. Sharp at 12, you called me and wished me 'Happy 3 Months Anniversary'. I was surprised. You asked me to come out from grandma house, you told me there was shooting stars tonight. I went out but I saw nothing. I went back to the house but I heard your car alarm rang so I thought you were outside of my grandma house. I called you and asked if it was you and you said it was. You saw me and said 'Happy 3 Months Anniversary' again. I asked you weren't you supposed to be at home and how were you going to go back to Penang in the midnight. You told me that you were going to stay at your relative house and went back to Penang early in the next morning. You handed me a bouquet of flower and I got really shocked. Bii bii, I was really really touched when I saw your surprise. I appreciate everything that you have done for me. And I was so sorry that Hui spoilt your third surprise. I guess she didn't even know that you planned the third surprise. And I got to know that you lied to me about your replacement class things. But I was touched. You seem to be the only one who can make me so surprise and touched. Thanks, my baby boy.

You came to my grandma house to find me. You fetched me and my cousins to Penang and joined my relatives. This is the first time you came out with my relatives. You wiped my sweat away, you held my hand, you accompanied me for shopping, you fed me food, you carried my handbag for me, you accompanied me to buy drinks at Starbucks and named me PIGGY, you accompanied me to the car, you bought me my favourite lemon blended for me... you're treating me in the way which no one can treat me so. You care about my family opinions on you. You are so scared that they will dislike you.