当你开始追求对方时，你会把最好的一面呈现给对方。即使对方告诉你他的缺点，你会对他说：“没关系，没有人是完美的。”“没关系，我不介意。”“没关系，喜欢一个人不就是要包容他的缺点吗？”这些，是你的诺言，还记得吗？在一起久了后，你就会发现她的缺点。你开始不耐烦，不想忍耐，并忘了之前那些诺言。你开始嫌弃，并告诉她这样不好，那样不好，要她改变，变成你想要的样子。

当你和她变成恋人后，你们开始谈起过去，未来。未来，还很遥远，遥不可及。但过去，已经发生，并不能改变。但要是另一方真的为了自己的过去吃醋的话，怎么办？换一个女友？找个时光机，回到过去，改变过去？


我不能说服我自己，告诉自己你已经放下她了。毕竟，在我们开始前不久，你们还有着密切的关系，你依然会用亲密的称呼来叫她。你依然在她的面子书上写着想念她的话。你依然和她一起出去，一起拍照。你们的亲密程度，真的让我很吃醋，让我很难忘掉你们的关系。我很担心你们还有联系，很担心她随时会回来找你，很担心她会从我身边抢走你。

我知道你对我有多么重要，我知道我不能失去你。失去你，我的心会很痛。我承认我自私，我承认我不喜欢分享，我承认我害怕，但我就是不想失去你。我把照片收起来，是想提醒我自己，你不完全是我的。我每次看到那张照片时，我的确会伤心，但我尝试让自己麻木，让自己习惯。我不想搞成现在这个样子，只是我还是很介意你说：“你的公主脾气又来了”的那句话。你开始嫌弃我了吗？我害怕，我害怕因此而失去你。毕竟，我已因此而失去过一次了，不想再因为同样的原因，而失去第二次。

请原谅我的自私，因为你是我的；请原谅我那么爱吃醋，因为我不喜欢分享；请原谅我的公主脾气，因为我就是这样；请原谅我选择沉默，因为我希望你能自己发现；请原谅我不告诉你原因，因为我不奢望得到你的谅解；请原谅我所做错的一切，这些都是因为我不想并不能失去你。对不起。

Safe

You don't feel safe when you're with me. I'm sorry. You asked me not to hurt you because you love me and you can't bear it if I hurt you. I'm so afraid that I will hurt you, not purposely but accidentally.

You said that I always talk about other guys in front of you and it makes you jealous. I thought you will take it as joke, I thought you know that my heart is always with you, I thought you won't mind it, I thought you trust me... I know that you love me, you care me and that's why you get jealous. I appreciate that. I don't want to lose you, but I'm afraid that things that I do might hurt you without noticing it. If one day, I really do lose you because of this, I gotta apologise to you from my deepest part of my heart. And you said that there's a lot of guys tackle me. If I'm interested in them, I would have accepted them before accepting you. Once I chose you, that means I will keep my heart with you. I chose you because you got my heart, not them.

I just hope that you will know I never want to lose you.

22/6/13

It was an amazing day. You came to SP from Penang early in the morning just to see me soon. You were waiting for me at Old Town before I came. When I was there, I was looking for you in the restaurant but I can't find you. You were already in the car >< you hugged me so tight. We went for movie together after that, Monster University. You hugged me tight in the cinema and let me leaned on your shoulder. I felt warmth. After the movie, we went for lunch together at Pizza Hut. You cut me pizzas and told me stories of you lately. We took some photos together too. We went for another movie after that, World War Z. Again, twin seat and you hugged me tight. You had warned me that this movie is about vampire. You know that I would be scared. I insisted watching that with you. You covered my eyes when there were some parts which you know they would scared me. I prepared my knuckles to punch you and you asked me stop doing so or else I won't be able to wear the ring in the future. You said that you will create a ring which is flexible. I know that is impossible but I still feel sweet of that. We then decided to play bowling in another mall. You drove your car and I drove mine. You followed me at the back. I can see you cry. You cried because you don't want to leave me so soon. When we reached the car park, you parked beside my car and went into my car and cried again. This time, you hugged me and I could hardly breath. You cried until your eyes were swollen. When we went for bowling, there was a kid who played the machine. You know I am scared of the sound, you covered my ears for me. That's really really caring. We went for dinner together after that. We sat in the car and talked for another half an hour. We didn't want to leave each other at all. But since daddy asked me to go home earlier, we gotta be separated. You followed my car again to go to the toll, and at the traffic light, I would need to turn right and you would make a U-turn. I purposely drove slower and when I reached the traffic light, it turned red, just as I wished. I was hoping so that the traffic light didn't turn green. I cried at the moment. I just got to know how much I love you and I need you at that moment. I cried and the tears just won't stop. The traffic light turned green. I looked at your car that made the U-turn. That made me cry harder.


We Skype at night and I told you that I was reading our previous conversation on Facebook. You told me that you had done that before after we've been together for about one month. I screen-shotted the conversation which made me feel sweet. I read them back for you. I told you how you caught my attention, how you got my number, how we started talking...those are the memories which I never wanted to lose. We laughed a lot because of our memories.

Now, I had finally know what I want. You're all I need. You don't have to worry that I will fall for others now. I bet I can't find anyone out there who can treat me better than you do.

Appreciate

I'm not sure if he's the one, but I know that his presence makes my life better...

I believe that almost every girl hopes that she can be a princess one day. but when time passes by, she becomes mature. She knows that princess doesn't exist but still she's hoping for someone who can treat her like a princess. I seem to find that person who can treat me like a princess.

He never fails to surprise me. 

He went to Kuantan for a competition for five days. He contacted me everyday just to let me know what's going on around him. I'm glad that I'm the one who he wanna share the good news with. Yes, He won the competition. He was crying on the other end of the phone and told me that he got silver for the competition. His bus arrived in Penang at 6am. I was already awake that time when he texted me about that. We talked on the phone and he said that he would give me a call when he was arrived at home. I had just finished preparing myself to go to college when I received his call. He asked me to go to my car to check if he's stuffs was there. I rushed to my car and to my surprise, he was in front of my house! That was really a big surprise ever. 

We were once hang out with my best friend at Queensbay Mall. When we were shopping around there, I saw a koala bear stuffed toy which was cute. We stood there for a few minutes and he seemed to know that I liked that bear very much. He then said that he wanna go to the washroom. Me and my friend felt like going there too. I asked for my handbag from him. After going to the washroom, he texted me suddenly to ask for my handbag. Me and my friend felt weird of that. We continued our shopping after he came out from the washroom. When he went to pay for the autopay, I thought of taking something out of my handbag. Once again, he surprised me by putting in the newly bought koala bear in my handbag. He then told me that he went to buy the bear once me and my friend entered the washroom and that was the reason why he asked for the handbag from me. 

On our first month anniversary, he asked me to go to my car to get something for him. And there it was, a love-shaped notebook which I liked it so much when we went for shopping once. He wrote all the memories we had in the notebook which was so touched. He gave me a key chain which stated the day we couple. 

He can always make me feeling happy even when I'm unhappy.

I was once feeling unhappy and he knew that the only drink that can make me happy is Justea. He bought me two cans of that to cheer me up. I asked him why did he buy two and he said that just in case I'm unhappy when he's not with me, I can have that. 

I was once angry with him for kept me waiting for too long to take dinner with me. He then went out and buy me some food and of course, a can of Justea too. He fed me the food and kept on asking me not to angry anymore. That makes me feel sweet. 

On our second month's anniversary, it is the time he is busy with his competition stuffs. He felt guilty for not gifting me anything. We went to Gurney for movie that day. After the movie, we went to carpark to get the car. I saw a Rilakkuma plush which was hung at my back mirror. There was a little bit jammming at the carpark so he asked me to take out my laptop and let him play some games. To my surprise again, there was a card on my laptop. He wrote something touched on the card and I almost cry because of that. That was truly a wonderful day. 

He's the one who cares me very much.

I was sick for two days once. It was a public holiday on the second day. He planned to hang out with his friends at first, but because of me, he rejected them. He was criticized by his friends after that. He took care of me for the whole night by covering me with blanket, preparing every single little things that I might be needed when I was awake and of course my phone at somewhere which was reachable so that I can give him a call when I need him anytime. 

I am suffering from anaemia and I will feel dizzy easily whenever I stand up. He will always be the one who knows that I will feel dizzy and he will always be at my side to let me hold him to keep myself standing. He won't allow me to kneel down because I will surely feel dizzy. That's always the way he cares me. 

When girls is having PMS, their mood become bad and they might feel pain. He can remember those suffering days of mine, and he will bring me chocolate when I'm feeling pain and he won't allow me to take cold drinks during that few days. He will also help me to buy those pads >< He cooked me supplement too~ He never angry with me even when I scold him or angry with him or even suggesting those unreasonable request, never.

I mentioned that I like the hello kitty plushes which were given out at McD. He heard that and he kept it in his mind. He bought me those plushes and he was once in a rush for his class, but still he went out from the college just to buy me that. 

This is how he cares me, from all those little things...he changed himself because of me...he corrected those bad habits which I dislike about him...he cares about my feeling always...he tries him best not to let me down or jealous because of him...

He's the one who I appreciate to have...thanks a lot, the one who called me little precious piggy <3 nbsp="">