SPM 2011 Results

SPM 2011 result was released today. Almost all the candidates were there with their parents along. Everyone was sitting there. Some of them looked nervous but most of them looked so calm. I was standing behind to listen to the statistic. It's very sad to know that there's no one getting straight A+ this year. The top student in our school got 9 A+ and an A. There's only 38 candidates that got straight A's in their SPM. I am kinda worry for my SPM as my result is always bad. =( I seem to have the fear towards my future. I used to wonder how will my future be. Am I going to achieve my dream? Am I going to study in my targeted university? Am I going to have my own family? They're what keeping my brain busy all the time. Some might ask me to work hard now and think about those stupid questions after getting the result. Yet, my dad said that I must have decided it by now and it considers late for me if I have no idea what course to take in university in the future. Honestly, I had decided it. At first my dad disagree with it, but now he started to support me. His encouragement makes me really happy but stressful too. I had argued with him because of this for more than 10 times so if I failed to achieve my dream, it means that I will have to disappoint him. I never want things to be like that. Disappointing your parents doesn't make you feel good, I supposed. It's the same for me. Stressful is the only word that can describe my mood now. ><