Today was such an exhausted day. I didn't sleep for the whole night and went to school in such a bad condition. I didn't feel sleepy in school,but I was a bit moody. Although my knee is injured and the doctor asked me to rest for 6 weeks,but I still joining my friends ran at the field and played bola jaring there. My PJ teacher said that I have the potential to play bola jaring and she asked me to think about it. I am so happy when I heard that.
During the Chemistry class,I was very moody. I had no mood to do anything or maybe I should say that I felt a bit sleepy. I felt like crying. My friend,Yee Jing told me that I sweat a lot and I realised that I'm sick. I didn't phone my mum to fetch me home because of that reason. I know I have many works to do and I can't go like this. I'm fever,but still I tried to do all my works perfectly.
When I told sir that I had to leave early for choral speaking practice later,he was like scolding me. I can know that he was very angry from his expressions. He asked me not to go for any activity after this and if I still going for it,I may be list in the reserved list. If this really happen,that means all the effort I put into it will be disappear. I don't want this to happen. I was so stressful because of choral speaking stuff. I had give sir a good impression and I'm not going to break it. What should I do? Quit? Or continue it?
I went for choral speaking practice at 3.30 and leave at 4 to teach the Persatuan Senamrobik members to dance. I went for Japanese Club activity at 4.45 at straight to my tuition at 5. Can you imagine how tired I am? Is there anyone that concern me because of these? Do anyone know that I'm really tired and stressful because of all these stuffs? If there is someone that know about it,can you keep me strong? Please...I need someone...to give me the strength...Sorry,Mr.XXXXX,I admit that I was wrong. I need someone. I'm weak. I'm not strong enough. And I lied a lot to you. Sorry...
I cried in school again. Luckily there was a counsellor in my class,Syafiq. Thanks to him,for consuling me and tell me what to do although I know I won't take his advice,but thanks anyway. I'm not in good mood for the whole day,include this moment,when I'm writing for my blog. Honestly,I didn't cry this much when I broke up with my first ex. This might be silly,but it's true. I do cry a lot because of this relationship. I force myself to sleep yesterday in order to stop my tears that was uncontrolable.
Tears drop again. I guess it means I should stop now.
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if it is too stressful, try not to participate in too many curricular activities. it might affect your results. about your relationship, try to forget it eventhough it's hard. when it's gone, it's gone. even if you keep thinking about it and no matter how much you cry for him, he aint coming back. try to make your life more meaningful by doing the things that you like.
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