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Monday, November 25, 2013

Prob-o-meter

Day by day, I feel that the love you have towards me is reducing. I know you said it's not, but I can feel it. I'm not sure are you right or am I. All I know is I really can't fell your love at all. Maybe you think your love to me is still remains the same, but to me, it has reduced day by day. 

I don't know since when you started to scold me whenever you want. I don't know since when you started not to care about me anymore. I don't know will you still be like this in the future or will you become worse than now in the future. 

I'm just a girl and I want to be cared like I'm fragile. I want to be concerned like I'm patient of yours. I want to be loved like I'm a princess. You were treating me so last time. But everything changed after I came back from my sem break. 

I'm not sure can we continue our relationship in this way, but I can tell you that I can't stand for your temper now. I apologise if my temper was so last time and you were the one who tolerate with me. I had changed to good now, but why are you changing to worse? I asked myself every night before sleeping, I asked myself when I'm staring at you, I asked myself what makes you become like that? Is it me? 

I don't know what else can I say. We had quarrelled about this for more than 5 times and you had told me several times that you will try to control your temper. But why can't I see any improvement in you? I asked you to chase me back. But you didn't want and you said that it will not make our relationship gets any better. Yet, you never know that I asked you to chase me back because I want you to remind me of the feeling we had at first and the love you had towards me last time. But you always say that there is no forever close relationship. You don't get me until now. I don't want forever close relationship, but just a closer one than now. Do you really know what's the feeling of being treated cool by the other half of yours. 

I don't want this thing to affect my exam neither yours. Is separating for somedays is a better way to us?  I wonder why must this happen to us when it is almost your birthday. 

If I ask for break up in this period of time, no doubt, I want you to lose me and get me back if you want. Other told me that: If you want to know is a guy loves you, let him go, if he comes back, he will be yours forever, but if he doesn't, let him go, he is not meant for you. 
I want you to lose me. I want you to appreciate me more. I want you to know your temper had chased me away. Please don't say that I don't love you that's why I can't stand for your temper, it is simply because your temper makes me can't breathe. I'm trying my best not to get angry when you're angry with me. Can't you see what I'm trying to do to avoid quarrelling with you? Have you ever appreciate what I'm trying to do to keep our relationship? I hope you do and will truly change yourself. 

Saturday, October 5, 2013

热血精神

看了《ON CALL 36小时 II》的片段,又再次的让我想当医生了。他们那种想要救人的精神,让我的内心再次变的热血。爸爸那天也说,以我这种人来说,读生意是很浪费的,尤其生意并不算是一项专业。他说:没办法,你的身体不允许你去读更专业的科目。听到这个,我好心酸。为什么我明明就有那么热血的精神想就读医科,可偏偏我的身体状况那么的差?我看到其他人po自己在医学院上课的场景,他们的成绩,我问自己,为什么站在那里的不是我?为什么不是我成为一名优秀的医生?

现在,家庭状况大概也供不了我读医科吧!我可不可以,在长大后,自己努力赚钱,供自己读医呢?希望未来的自己,真的有这个能力。

现在的我及未来的我,一起努力吧!

加油!!!!!

Friday, August 30, 2013


Baby boy, I suddenly realized that we should have a more mature relationship. You are always the one who is mature in this relationship, but I am not. I keep on jealous of your past. I know I shouldn't do so. I promise... I will be more mature... I won't be jealous of her anymore... by the way, you look so cute when you're jealous <3 p="">

Baby boy, I promise you that I won't be angry with you so easily anymore... I pity you sometimes too when I regret for angry with you... I know my temper nowadays is bad... sorry... I'm not sure why will I be like this but I will try to improve myself so that my temper won't be this bad anymore... baby boy, I'm really sorry for everything which had happened these days... sorry :( I miss you~

MY DEAREST CUTEST LITTLE BABY HUBBY BOY, I WILL TRY MY BEST TO LOVE YOU LIKE HOW YOU LOVE ME <3 p="">